wow, these last few years have been a roller coaster to say the least. But I've gotten used to the spins, twist, spirals and loop-da-loops and you know what? I think I can see this ride out to the end! It is a most wonderful feeling when you feel like you can see the bright side of life coming towards you and you know something better is coming. (or at least I hope...lol)
Some things will never change:
1. Family will always be the first ones to fuck you over. (repeatedly)
2. friends and loved ones will back stab you no matter how much you think you can trust them
3. The things you think you want to most in life will slip away from your grasp no matter how hard you try to hold on...

So with these in mind it becomes easier to get through life.. so now that my eyes are open and my mind and heart cleared I want to start again fresh, if you will, in my life again.

I feel like I have changed so much in the last year, and even more in the last 6 months. It is true that a vital part of me has died, but in my death a new Kijo has resurrected and I am actually happy with the person I am as of now. A giant leap from the person whom I used to hate.

So in honor of this new me and a birth of a new personage, I have created a new Deviantart account, and will be deleted this old one, as I have erased so much of the memories that I have been burdened with over my life.

I will send all my friends the new deviantart account and everyone should just erase this old account!!!

So this is my update, and for once I think my life is starting to become better, if only a little bit.


P.S. Thank you Andi, for being such a good friend, you've helped me more than you would possibly imagine! <3


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I can never go back to who I used to be, or where we used be together... and I realized that you will never change. So although I said it before, This is my formal goodbye. My new life begins today.
I used to struggle with the decision of if I would rather erase the memories to ease the pain, or would rather endure the pain to be able to cherish the memories of happier times.........
Well now that my eyes are cleared of your lies, times with you were more worse than good, and I would rather burn your memories than suffer on the pain you promised you would never cause me.
well I see your face more clearly than I ever have before, and you are the most hideous person I have ever seen.
You get to lie in the bed you make, and you lay in a bed of deceitful lies.
So here are you useless memories, they are a gift, as was my heart.
I can make new memories, and they will be even sweeter because i will never allow myself to be hurt again, like I was with you.